a little less eighteen candles

This is just my personal blog where I muse about life and random things. I'll skip the introduction.. just read and get to know me if you want.
Tomorrow is my eighteenth birthday. So, 2 more hours to go until I'm an 'adult'.
For some reason I always imagined becoming eighteen would be so special.
When I was a kid, 18 was the age.  Being still young but already all grown-up and mature. Now that I look back I can still remember how we all seemed to think that life would just change within one day. Driving a car, drinking alcohol, being able to make decisions for yourself (not having to listen to your mothers nagging anymore) and all that stuff. I really couldn't wait for it to come.
And now, having exactly one hour and 53 minutes left till that big moment I'm all flustered and confused.
Nothing really changed. I still feel way too young for my age. And thinking that I'll actually be eighteen so soon. It just plain scares me.
So, while I always thought being eighteen would also be the start of my life as an adult in reality I'm still just ... something inbetween.
But now I don't even know if I actually want that. I like being young and not having to worry too much about life (laugh).
Seventeen was a really good year. I went to Japan as an exchange student. And, maybe for the first time in my life, realised who I am and, more importantly, that it is ok to be the way I am.  I made friends which will be there for me wherever I go. Made experiences, grew  and had to make decisions which only I could do.
Yes, I do think I became more mature during this time. But still.. I just don't feel 18 (well, I'm still 17 as I write this).
Because of the catastrophe in Japan I had to come back earlier and made some not-so-pretty experiences.
But that's ok.  It just makes me stronger (not that I need to be, I already have a quite strong personality).
So, now that I'm 18, I have heaps of plans for this year. First of all, getting my driving license! And going for a trip with friends! And skiping class and writing the excuse paper myself!
Woah.. it will be so much fun. (*.*)
OK. Ready for my eighteen candles.